"My Dearest Best Friend"

       

   This picture was give me a happy memory. It started when we had a favor to my classmate to take me a picture together with my friend, and she is my best friend.we are happy together , we always wants a happy things. bonding, more talking, enjoy ourselves together, laugh much like there's no tomorrow.I enjoy every time i see her, i feel for her it seemed like even a simple happiness from her was so easily to attained, that is a kind of girl she is. it comes to the point that i put aside my dream for her, but after all the things that happened , i still push to my self that she is only my best friend, aside from that i wouldn't expecting too much from her , even if i have a feelings for her. . . . . suddenly i came to realize that there's no chance to our "relationship" and i should be contented to our "friendship." Now i still convince myself that she loved by someone. I stop making my self look like a fool , i was just be contented of what we have now.         For all i know, everything won't be the same again that is: "what you want is what you get"besides everything happen has a purpose, all human must being happy , but well never known what is the best things for us. even do i have to live in fear.I was assume of all the things, gives me a real of happiness, but i am wrong. We should sacrifice first before we meet it. i thought that it easy for me, and i learned we should decide what's best for me and what's best for us, although loving her would only mean pain and hearth ache to me.           But this time i cannot focus for that matter, i will arrange everything in my life .. even sometimes i encountered the circumstances, i know god helps me to solve what he gives to me.And i look for the next chapter of my life ..peoples admire me, because they say i am responsible enough. . .because i can stand with my own life, i can study without helping others . that's why they admire me . . .          I just focus to  to our work ship, and i don't need  to ascertain the truth , because now i found the way of truth. I was hoping to stay here forever  until the last minute of my life . . . and i know someday god gives me a reward for all of this . .         and lastly this picture gives me an inspiration to follow my dreams, to attain my goal, and to built my self from the pain.